When you let the clouds move just a little bit for the sun!

What a day!  I have had a cloud over me for about a week or so and nothing I did seem to clear it away, even just a little bit! And then a dear friend and I talked today on Facebook instant messaging and she said something that I fought about for a few minutes and then the cloud drifted for just a bit and voila an idea!!

My guides asked me a few weeks ago to put together a six month teleconference program, and after I said "who me?"  I actually put something together and decided to jump into it full force. I did advertising on Facebook and my email contacts and flyers in lots of places and it was to start this week....NOT!  As Mercury was in retrograde and so on--no one even came forward with interest...sooo

after realizing it was time to find another corporate job-I started  putting in resumes to places and at least making the motions of getting corporate back in my sights.

This morning, my dear friend said she saw that I was supposed to do the calls anyway, and I laughed and said "with who?"  "myself?"  That is where the ego stepped in to advise her that  I couldn't possibly do it-and she advised that I had some lessons waiting for me by doing it.  Then the new idea came...light bulb moment..

I am doing a free teleconference this week and after that a weekly call for $25 and each week a different topic and maybe a different day and time...all about being flexible with if I end up going back to corporate--I fit in where I can!!

YEA me!!

A great day of new ideas....check my Facebook profile for information or my Fan Page for Working In Femininie Energy on Facebook!!!

See you in teleconference land and blogger community here! Woohoo!

Bright light to the World??

I had a interesting conversation with a friend yesterday and the following is what I posted in another forum, one that someone was supporting me through my pain.

Thank you for the vote of confidence and seeing the light in me..interestingly yesterday I got a call from someone that moved out of Houston a year ago and she was in a down state and needed someone from "home" to talk to. She follows all my Facebook positive thoughts and has felt a huge connection with me. She explained that she SEES the light that people are or aren't and feels the light at great physical feelings. She explained to me that when she had met me YEARS ago at another church she ran the other way because my light was SOO bright she couldn't possibly share friendship or space with someone she saw as sooo bright. I had heard this from her before but yesterday it gave me a perspective I needed to remember and claim for myself. She said that anytime she saw me work with someone energetically --she felt it even across the room and she sees my light going out for the world to see and feel and touch. It was pretty overwhelming in one sense of the word and affirming as well.
So thank you for seeing that I can be low in one moment, yet it isnt dimming my light!!!

Things are better and I am actually putting applications in for jobs here and there to see what shows up and even shows up as the best place I am to be!! Something that will see my light and bring it in to shift their offices and lives (little do they know what that really means--hehehe) My guides and angels are on the job for me right NOW!! and so it is!

Fantasy or reality or belief?

Good evening to the world of possibilities--

I am a soul that believes firmly that I can create the life I feel a passion for--which is about helping the souls of the world, heal their pain of non belief or uncertainty or pain or separation from whatever higher power they believe they are separate from.

Of course, that also includes me too. I see people making the energy of money on TV because of dancing or doing 10 plastic surgeries in 1 day or talking or being talented or all of the above, and I wonder where there is a place for me that wants to heal the world of pain and sorrow and  stay away from the corporate model?  How does this seem fair? I am sure I am not the only one in this position and I feel it for alot of folks I am sure!

Here I am tonight, feeling strangely ok with having to probably go back to a corporate job although, I don't want to go back to what I have done before--I know that will be the easier job to find and create money coming in quickly.  On the other hand, I am running through all kind of what if's in my head and thinking about applying for food stamps and figuring on what to cut out of the budget (well--not that I ha--hehehe).  All of this I know is something important and a weird sense of calm and underlying sadness are in my field of feeling. I don't even know if I am making any sense right here and I don't care--just want to get my feelings out on paper and maybe someone else will see this and get where I am!

If I have to go back to corporate, there is one place I would love to create a job for myself and it is a small company here in the HOUSTON area that builds these fabulous cottages for residents with Alzheimer and their mission is something I would like to be very involved in with my massage and healing energy work and sound healing.  I get that these residents can with a different vision from the people around them could stay where they are in memory or even get better and work towards better physical conditions. This would be so important to the world of these cottages.  It seems I can't ever get in touch with the CEO as she is so busy and yet I  right now place an intention that she hears my heart's   desire and finds time for getting this set up for those residents and me!

I also want so much to be a voice and guide for the souls that are waking up to this world of possibilities and consciousness and I have a 6 month teleconference program that can serve the world in this way!! I set an intention that 20-25 people see and are touched by my website and want to join in the May 19 2010 class!!

As for now, I send my gratitude to God and Spirit for taking care of me the last 57 years will all the decisions I have made and loves and losses and sorrows and taken me thru all of it with grace and love for the lessons!  I somehow have set the fear aside in this moment and with Mercury going direct tomorrow..all will get clearer for everyone and all intentions will bring forth that right action!

I AM GRATEFUL and release it all to GOD -- AND SO IT S!

Wonderfilled days and months and years and life!

Today I am now reminded that everything in life is wonderfilled and I need to remember this every day of my life. If you have never seen that word it may be that you are not on my email list or Facebook friend list.  I am nortorious for using that made up word I created years ago.

I was working a relief position at my airline job (reservations--operations department--I am now retired YEAH!)  and I had reports to do daily to management.  I wanted to jazz the report up a bit since it was so much about numbers and that is not me!  So I made sure  I found a positive quote for the day and then ended it with "Have a wonderfilled day!" 

There are always things that we see or write or do daily that become routine and we forget the meaning of them. This word is one of those things..

WONDERFILLED --a word that was made up by me to remind me that life is filled with wonder and that I want to ALWAYS remember that each moment-each day and my LIFE is filled with wonder! How could I possibly see or feel or know anything else but wonder!

I look around and  I see a beautiful townhome that worked out with some much wonder when I bought it and I have the sweetest and most healing partner in my dog Shadow.  He works  with my clients and me all the time.  I have so many friends and people in my healer/consciousness community that are there for me when I need a shoulder to cry or lean on and help with suggestions all the time..they also remind me of the reasons that they notice that keep me and move me forward on my spiritiual and financial and personal paths!!

SO today as I wait for 3 friends to come and do some amazing breathwork for themselves this evening,  I  thank my angels/guides-spirit and GOD for all the wonder in my life!!

My words today to move me into the light--2 different ways--gratitude and intentons

Gratitude statement--
Today I am grateful for even the uncertain and cloudy days of my life. It reminds me of the great times and teaches me the light and the dark and teaches me to always head for the light....each of these places a valuable lesson in this human experience. The cloudy days also reminds me that so much of my life is lived in the light (even when the wattage is duller sometimes) and I LOVE Spirit and GOD and my ANGELS AND GUIDES as they are always there for my highest good and best outcome...there are always answers even when I am not seeing them in the moment! So I am grateful for knowing I can pick up the flashlight and shine it thru the clouds each and every moment and see the answers I am looking for in all avenues on my life highway!! I AM GRATEFUL

Intention statements--(LONG)

I am attracting all of the money and clients and knowledge and students I need as I am a shining light in the world and my light is brighter and more magnetic than ever before--and with each word written today, the cloud of uncertainy is lifted and my light shines brighter.  I am going to live my life larger than I ever have before--this is a shifting from it showing up on my physical body to the world outside myself--shining bright and with joy and love for myself!

I AM LIGHT   I AM LOVE   I AM CO-CREATOR  I AM GOD'S PERFECT CHILD   I AM HEALING   I AM HEART   I AM JOY  I AM LAUGHTER   I AM SHARING   I AM RESPONDSIBLE   I AM GATHERING   I AM SPIRIT   I AM TEACHER  I AM STUDENT   I AM A TECHY   I AM  A WRITER   I AM A FRIEND   I AM A SISTER   I AM SILLY  I AM LAZY

This writing is lifting my fog and fear and bringing me the peace of KNOWING all will be well! 

I have started a job with AGC and am a traveling healer  for all the cottages and creating  massage and Matrix Energetics and sound sessions to help the residents with holding onto their memories and facilties.  With all this being 3 days a week from 1100a-600p (t/w/th) creating ALL I need as a salary including gas and tolls.  I have started this job between 6/1-6/15  2010. They are so excited at each cottage for me to be there 2 times a month minimum.   With the job I work from home, travel to the cottages and am paid well.  The owners and families of the res idents are seeing differences in the residents demeanors and minds and lives.  I am making a huge difference in their worlds through DIVINE LOVE AND SPIRIT!

AND SO IT IS!!!

So am I a writer?

Good evening blogging world.

I participated in a Alternative Health Fair yesterday and had a 10 minute astrology reading. Very interesting, as she pointed out that there was a certain planet that when I was born was at a degree that I came in with a child prodogy in writing and my own ideas.. WHO KNEW???

Interestingly somewhere in high school (which I bearly skated through) I did some sort of creative writing and was told I wasn't doing it right--which even if I really wanted to write--squashed my desire and so called ability!!

So now when I really pour my heart out in a journal or letter to Spirit or even a quick blurb to an online group letting them know of a fellow group members' family member dying-I have friends willing to make sure I realize that I do have a beautiful way of writing. AMAZING!!

Do I dare think about writing for the masses? I even tried writng for a few articles on things I LOVE on some blog site--and they said NO!! Keep on going--keep on writing...keep on plugging my abilities and passions and love in life---HEALING and sharing my knowledge to help others find their way through the maze of new thought and healing worlds!!

I am about to embark on something that is so scary and so exciting for my growth and to follow the guidance I am receiving from my guides is so important to remind myself that I do hear and feel and know that went I was guided to quit corporate America and live my passion was the way to create my life to be fulfilling and prosperous forever more!

I will make it in this world of being there for others and guiding myself and others on the road to a full spiritual and loving life!

I am putting out the intention to create a class of 25 or more that starts May 19th and will be the most helpful class for all that are in it and I use a quatum heart connection to connect with each of those students before and during all the classes. I intend that all classes will come to me with ease and joy and excitement to share it with everyone.

So as I finish all the writing for this day..the question is still am I a writer??